I have been unsuccessfully trying to define “life-rehab” and perhaps the reason for this is simply due to the fact that I have no idea what or how to achieve it. I’m starting t
o believe that life-rehab is merely just a form of writer’s block and causes feelings of nostalgia and hopelessness.
When honesty is met with cynicism then why not lie? If apologies are not followed up with forgiveness then why bother to say sorry at all? If calorie counting is not rewarded with weight loss then why not eat a Krispy Kreme? Why should I be so good if everyone thinks that I’m bad?
Maybe I am biting off more than I can chew, maybe rehabbing doesn’t just happen overnight. The problem is, and I’ve said it before, I’m terribly impatient. I want to see results now. I want to feel differently about my life. I want to see things with new eyes. I could get an eye transplant, but who are we kidding? Old habits die hard, right?
Ah, detox. You are a real shrewd mistress. While I have accepted that there is a higher power, apologized to those who have been hurt by my old ways, and even accepted and admitted to my own mistakes (just as the twelve steps have advised), I am feeling something that isn’t on the list; Grief.
Many people think that grieving is restricted to death, but I want to dispel that notion. Grieving is a natural and healthy reaction to change (whether the change is positive or not). It involves asking tough questions, such as, “Why is this happening?”, or “Can I handle this?” It can also include sporadic bursts of emotion, late night phone calls to friends and family, and maybe even some trips down memory lane. The process of grieving serves to chip away at a fragile layer and to rebuild that layer with a tougher skin (so to speak). When you are finally able to answer those tough questions without self-pitying, and you feel a renewed sense of energy, you have achieved closure and can move ahead to the next stage of life.
Then it hits me. I have at last, reached the final, twelfth step: spiritual awakening. My eyes are seeing things clearly for once and I know now what I must do. I must put away those demons and make room for love and self-acceptance in my life.
Even if honesty is met with cynicism, don’t lie because it becomes a destructive web that will weigh heavily on your heart. Say sorry because you are sorry and not because you expect anything in return. Don’t eat the Krispy Kreme, period. C’mon, if you are going to
waste calories, at least do it on something that will fill you up like a piece of fudge cake! If anyone thinks I’m being bad when I’m actually being good then I will just laugh at how I have fooled them all! Now how’s that for life-rehab?!
o believe that life-rehab is merely just a form of writer’s block and causes feelings of nostalgia and hopelessness.When honesty is met with cynicism then why not lie? If apologies are not followed up with forgiveness then why bother to say sorry at all? If calorie counting is not rewarded with weight loss then why not eat a Krispy Kreme? Why should I be so good if everyone thinks that I’m bad?
Maybe I am biting off more than I can chew, maybe rehabbing doesn’t just happen overnight. The problem is, and I’ve said it before, I’m terribly impatient. I want to see results now. I want to feel differently about my life. I want to see things with new eyes. I could get an eye transplant, but who are we kidding? Old habits die hard, right?
Ah, detox. You are a real shrewd mistress. While I have accepted that there is a higher power, apologized to those who have been hurt by my old ways, and even accepted and admitted to my own mistakes (just as the twelve steps have advised), I am feeling something that isn’t on the list; Grief.
Many people think that grieving is restricted to death, but I want to dispel that notion. Grieving is a natural and healthy reaction to change (whether the change is positive or not). It involves asking tough questions, such as, “Why is this happening?”, or “Can I handle this?” It can also include sporadic bursts of emotion, late night phone calls to friends and family, and maybe even some trips down memory lane. The process of grieving serves to chip away at a fragile layer and to rebuild that layer with a tougher skin (so to speak). When you are finally able to answer those tough questions without self-pitying, and you feel a renewed sense of energy, you have achieved closure and can move ahead to the next stage of life.
Then it hits me. I have at last, reached the final, twelfth step: spiritual awakening. My eyes are seeing things clearly for once and I know now what I must do. I must put away those demons and make room for love and self-acceptance in my life.
Even if honesty is met with cynicism, don’t lie because it becomes a destructive web that will weigh heavily on your heart. Say sorry because you are sorry and not because you expect anything in return. Don’t eat the Krispy Kreme, period. C’mon, if you are going to
waste calories, at least do it on something that will fill you up like a piece of fudge cake! If anyone thinks I’m being bad when I’m actually being good then I will just laugh at how I have fooled them all! Now how’s that for life-rehab?!
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It really is now or never. That's what I keep telling my brother about the new life rehabilitation in Los Angeles, CA. Thanks for sharing.
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